Into my heart.....

After a series of questions over the past year about who God is and what it means to be a follower of Jesus Christ, our sweet boy Kai humbled himself before the Lord and gave his life to Christ on the night of February 9th, 2012! However, he did not tell his Mom until a week later! After some life lessons were talked about one night, he began sobbing and told me that he needed to tell me something really important. My heart dropped, thinking about what in the world could it be!? It honestly sounded like he was going to drop this big, dark bomb on me. After I assured him that he could tell me anything, he responded that he was really scared to tell me. My heart was really racing now. Then came the sweet words he could barely utter through his cries "I 'told' Jesus to come into my heart and forgive my sins". SAY WHAT!! I was shaking....I said honey, this is something to CELEBRATE, not be scared about. After talking about it more, what scared him was "God/HolySpirit & Heart" He thought it would hurt when the Holy Spirit entered his heart. So I too was sobbing by now. When I asked him how he felt now, he said well, I actually feel really good and it didn't hurt. Then I asked, WHEN did you do this?? He remembered the night(which was over a week ago!)....Luke and I had a talk with him about lying. We were frustrated with him to say the least, but had no idea that night the Lord was leading him to surrender his own life to Him! He prayed alone in his bed. Even though I don't think he fully understands what it means to follow Jesus, he stepped out in a child like faith and I know that the Lord heard him! I do know that once he decides he is going to do something, it means he has put a lot of thought into it. And after the year of questions, I know for sure he has thought and thought about it....even contemplated it at times. I never once pushed him, but was just frank in my answers.  I can't tell you how full this Mama's heart is. Funny thing is, is that a few weeks ago I decided I needed to start praying more specifically for our children. I had always "prayed" for them each night when I went to bed, but they were always general prayers. I specifically prayed that God would soften Kai's heart and that he would accept His invitation of salvation. To see how the Lord worked in his life through all of this is beyond words. Praise be to God! Angels were rejoicing in heaven on the night of February 9th! So, so proud of our boy.